so... between the last post and this one:

i turned 20.
i cut up a chicken, a lizard and a frog.
i gots a bruise! :(
i wrote 3 reports.
i fifnished my possum's skull!

and i guess that's about it. nothing really exciting lately, it's always the same old thing day after day, week after week. the only exciting thing happening may not be very exciting for anyone else. if anything, i think people may think it's disgusting. which i do agree, sometimes.

maybe i should shut this down? i dont know why i still write in this thing...

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7.06 pm and im still in uni. did i mention it's friday night?

sad (but very true) thing is, i cant stuidy at home. there is no singular reason as to why that is; i can give you few of them, but i can never say exactly why i cannot study at home. it's usually too cold, or too noisy, or the lack of space (i like to spread my notes out), or just plain distracting... with the food and the tv and the bed all within 10 metres of me.
so i come to uni early. and stay late. it's warm. it's a relatively "sterile"atmosphere. there's not very much noise, just the standard clacking of keyboards and the humming printer. all of which, may i add, have a very soothing effect for someone with very frazzled nerves.

the only other sad thing is that when 2pm comes, i start slowing down, study wise. i pretty much do very little, or no study at all at night. guess i should have gone to kung fu, but i'd be so exhausted by the day that even if i went, i'd just be wasting my time cos i wouldnt know what im doing. or embarrass myself, which seem to happen a lot these days.

anyway. i shouldnt complain. some people get it worse than me. but i must say that all this study and staying back and all that is definitely paying off. and i know this because im on par in academic performances as nick, whom i see as a borne genius. and i mean genius. born and raised on a farm, he knows more about animal production than i do. but i've managed to beat him in the last 2 tests (by 2 points, not that big a deal) and in vertebrate zoology im right up there with him, point by point. that achievement itself is something i should be very proud of.
of course i have had a lot of help from him, so i guess i should give him some credit.

so yes. more study this weekend, got another animal productions test next tuesday. quite frankly i dont know what to study for; without meaning to sound crude, the whole test is about penises and vaginas. animal ones, of course. reproduction has never been my favourite subject. can i see myself as head of the artificial insemenation department when i get a job? no.
i think, if all else fails, i'll go to the nearest museum and offer to help preserve animal skulls. i think i'd be very happy doing that for the rest of my life. it's be so cool to do an elephant's head, or a fur seal or a lion or something like that.

sad sib rant

this is so unfair.

so i've just had my 2 weeks of mid-term break. but you know what? it didnt even feel like i've had a chance to rest at all. it is the worst feeling EVER knowing you've just had 2 weeks of break BUT you never got a chance to take that break because there's just a crap load of work that needs to be done.

the whole of the first week i spent studying for biochem. ok, so that one was worth it cos i admit i havent actually studied for biochem all semester.
for at least 5 hours everyday of the second week i spend sitting in the lab, with very bad posture, bent over my possum's skull, cleaning and scraping at bits of bleach-boiled flesh with tweezers til my gaming thumb hurts.

i didnt even have time to catch up on animal behavior notes, or vertebrate zoology notes, or my animal production notes.

at least it wasnt all a complete waste of time; im way ahead with my possum's skull at the moment, i think i can totally forget about it for a month. that's how long it's gonna take those slackers to catch up now, what with the labs being unavailable and the usual business of uni and all that. hahaha. serves you right for going on a break.

i feel mean now.

evil poo uni computer crashed on me when i was writing my report! damned scary stuff, but thank God i managed to save it before things went bad. it's due tomorrow, and i have half a discussion and an intro to write. it's always like that, i hate it! T__T

i dont even have time for my favourite things anymore. like going to kung fu. telling simo i had to take 2 weeks off was the worst thing i've ever had to do!! heck yes i know i wouldnt be able to grade if i didnt turn up for 2 weeks. of course i know all that. do you think i dont know that? do you seriously think i dont think about it at night and regret ever saying i need 2 weeks off? do you really think i'd be happy not grading? God knows there's nothing more i want for my birthday than to pass that grading. but it's not going to happen now is it?? my only consolation is that i'd do well enough in my 3 up-coming tests... i want an 'A'. it's about time i got one anyway.

so that's it from me. one very busy (and extremely sad) little (but not so little) girl.

maybe i'll go work on that skull. it's very therapeutic actually. too bad i've got nothing to do now except the nose, and that's not therapeutic at all. break those damned bones and it's bye-bye A+.

once again, T___T

edit 7.58pm
i want to go home!! i've never been in uni anymore than 9 hours before! my longest day is 9 til 6 (on thursdays), and i cant believe im actually here for a full 11 hours today! T__T

i hate it so much why on earth did i choose to do a double degree?? why on earth did i chose to do a science degree period. i dont know how much more of this i can take. sadly im not one of the naturally smart ones who can look at something for 10 minutes and know everything...what they learn in 10 minutes i'll eventually learn after reading it at least 5 times T___T

why wasnt i born on a damned dairy farm or a farm of some sort, so at leat i could breeze through the animal science part of my degree?? why is it that i've never seen a calf in my whole life until about a month ago and be called a jakun by my friend?? why dont i have a horse so i can go work on a horse stead over summer and earn crap loads of money?? why dont i know what a male young bull is called?? why dont i know how to drench livestock, or feed them, or milk them or help them deliver their babies (actually i know how to deliver babies but i've never done it before)?? why dont i have someone i can ring up when im stuck with a stupid question like "what's another word for dags?" or "what do you do when your sheep accidentally drank concentrated sulphuric acid?"?? why dont i own a pair of overalls, why are my gumboots so damned clean you can eat your dinner off it??!!

and what am i doing in uni i should be at kung fu right now!!!!

oh wow. oh um ok... wow. i didnt realize it's been about a month sisnce i've written something. man im slack at this. but why do i bother anyway? who reads this stuff?

but i guess i should write something, since i have a space on the web world and all that.

besides being over the top busy with study and kung fu, i dont think there really is anything else to talk about. would you rather me not talk about anything, i.e. not update often or would you rather have me rant about what i did in uni? i guess, for me, i'd prefer it if i didnt have to write about it. some of my experiences are... interesting.

that, and cos i do have lots of pics i wanna put on here, but im not allowed cos it's against the animal welfare code bla bla some bull about how we're not allowed to show people what we actually cut up in the labs. the only problem? those things are COOL and that's what people want to see and hear about!
but no. my lecturer is a very funny man so i wont risk jeopardizing his position as a lecturer by putting those pics up, he might get sued.

actually, tomorrow marks the end of the first half of the second semester. man, im so excited you wont even believe it. of course, it's not gonna be a proper break; too many tests when i get back, plus a report due. oh, and let's not forget that possum's skull i have to prepare, polish and label. exciting.

ok my music's done. that's all for now, until i decide that it's time for me to come on here again.